We need prayers......

My family got the worst news possible this week. My amazing nephew John was diagnosed with neuorblastoma which is a cancer found in small children. Right now we are still waiting for a game plan for treatment because of the size and location of his tumor. My family has never been so tested and scared over anything before. It's amazing how many times we've seen God at work in the last couple of days. Even though things have been hard, things keep falling into place that we haven't expected. The love and support that has poured out for Daren, Rach and the kids has been awesome.

As of right now John will have surgery on Friday to take a sample of his bone marrow, a biopsy of the tumor and put in the central line. It will take all day because the don't want to have to open him up three times due to his age and size.

I will try to keep posting updates as I get them but it might be hard due to time. It also might be hard because I'm now taking care of Sam and Lilie. My cousin Josh is helping with Sam which has been so nice. I'm so blessed to have a big, close family!!

Please keep John in your prayers.

Having a Great Time!!

Last night was my fifth date with Shawn. He came over to my house and we watched The Dark Knight. Last week when he came over, I got Papa Murphy's pizza and he didn't like my choice so he wanted to pick the pizza this time. He told me he wanted to bring over his kind of pizza. I almost died laughing when he showed up with a couple of Tombstone frozen pizzas. He was so cute and proud of himself. I really didn't know how he felt about me after our date Saturday night because he was so quiet. I was starting to wonder if he was bored with me already. He finally opened up about some medical stuff he had going on that made him worried last weekend. His doctor called him back yesterday and everything will be fine so he was in a great mood. He was his usual funny self. I'm having a great time taking things slow and just getting to know him. It's been so different from the other rejects I've dated. He's a little shy but I can tell I'm wearing him down. No one is going "Freaky Fast " this time:)

New Guy

Christy from work decided about a month ago that I needed to meet her brother Shawn. We are the same age, both never been married and we don't have any kids. She's been telling me forever that he is so cute and really thought we would hit it off. Everyone else here has told me what a great guy he is so I told her to set it up. The weekend after Christmas I went to Decatur to meet Lisa, Tiffany and Julie for a couple drinks and we ended up at the same place as Christy and Shawn. It was nice that it wasn't planned so it didn't feel weird. We talked and hung out for a couple hours and exchanged phone numbers. Last week we talked on the phone several times and he asked me out. Every conversation has been very comfortable and he's really funny so I said yes. We agreed to do something Saturday night but couldn't decide what we wanted to do. He says he's not a planner and I like to have plans so we joked about it all week. He tried to get me to plan it but I told him it's his job. I had to laugh because he's a bread man....Paul was a bread man! Rachel thinks it's cute.

Saturday night I met him at a Mexican restaurant in Decatur. He told me when we got there he remembered me mentioning my love of chips and salsa. He actually paid attention which got him major bonus points!! We had a great time at dinner and stayed at the restaurant for about two hours. We had decided to go have a couple of drinks but it was too foggy when we got outside. Shawn is really adamant about not drinking and driving (and the fog really bothered him) so he asked if it was ok if we postponed the rest of our date and met up again on Sunday. I was kind of bummed but I have to respect his concern. He called me when I got home to make sure I was safe. Again, more bonus points!!

Last night we decided to go to a movie. We met before the movie and sat and talked. He has this really cute dimple when he smiles and it's really starting to grow on me! After our movie we sat in my car talking again for a lone time. It's weird to talk to a guy that actually pays attention to what I say and remembers things. He is so easy to talk to and I feel completely comfortable around him. We agreed that we are having a really great time and will definitely see each other again. He works really odd hours and has weird days off so we have to work around his schedule. He has Wednesday off so he wants to do something tomorrow night. Sounds good to me! After a really sweet kiss we parted ways. He called me again when I got home to make sure I made it and to tell me goodnight.

I drove all the way home last night with a smile on my face, and when I woke up this morning it was still there. We do have things in common but he really likes our differences. He makes comments all the time that opposites attract and seem to balance out a relationship. I'm taking my time getting to know him and enjoying every minute of it :)

Christmas

Yesterday was a very long, but great day. I spent the day at Daren and Rachel's drinking wine and mudslides playing with the kids. John and Lilie are so much fun right now. They laugh and giggle when you play with them and it melts my heart. John started rolling over so you have to watch him. Lilie's belly is quite a bit bigger than her brother's so it might take her a little longer. Sam was very needy yesterday and got mad at me if I played with the twins. He has figured out the opening presents part of Christmas and wants to open all the presents. He gets so animated you can't help but laugh at him. I got him a Hot Wheels city and after he opened it he didn't care about anything else. Mom got him Superman pj's (with a cape!) and he sat in the toilet with them on. Superman had a wet booty!! My dad even came over twice yesterday. It's the first time in three years he's decided to see any of us for Christmas. It really was a nice day.

Bill called me Tuesday and left a message that he wanted to know how I've been lately and to warn me that the roads were bad and to be careful. I caved and called him back but he was playing cards with his family so we only talked for a minute. Yesterday morning he texted me (before 8am - the first person of the day) to tell me Merry Christmas. I got all sappy and cried over it. I wish I was strong enough to tell him to just leave me alone but I'm not. Something about that man makes me weak and I don't like it!!! I need a distraction so the next time he calls I can say "Bill who?" :)

The Last Couple of Weeks

Thought I would share some pictures of what I've been up to lately. As you can tell, single life doesn't agree with me at all!!!

Many Updates

I haven't posted anything in a long time because I didn't know what to post. Bill and I have been going through a rough couple of weeks and I didn't know if we were together or not. I have made the decision that we are no longer together. I do love that man but he's got so many issues I can't deal with and his selfishness is getting really old. The last three weekends I haven't seen or talked to him at all and I'm so tired of it!!! I got invited to go bowling on Wednesday night with my cousins and several friends and Heather and Andy has someone for me to meet. I felt guilty at first because I didn't know what was going on with Bill but I had so much fun. His name is Clay and he's adorable. Honestly, he's more my type than Bill. We decided to go back to Heather and Andy's for after-hours after we got done bowling. Of course, the minute I got in my car Bill called. He missed me and wanted to see me over the weekend. I had just enough to drink that I fell for it. The rest of the night I felt so guilty for having fun with another man. Thursday Bill texted me all morning and was his normal self. We agreed to talk later that day and make plans......he never answered his phone again. I went shopping with Erika and Jill Friday morning and had a blast. That night we all went up to the Pub and had even more fun. Still.....no Bill. Friday night my grandpa had a heart attack. I didn't find out about it until Saturday morning and wanted to call Bill so bad. I cried all morning because I was worried about Grandpa and knew that Bill wouldn't answer his phone if I called so I spent the day with Erika instead. I finally tried to call him Saturday night at 6:15 and left a message that I had a really bad day and really needed to talk to him..... I still haven't heard back from him. Saturday and Sunday were both long horrible days waiting to hear news about Grandpa. I really could have used support from my "boyfriend". Grandpa ended up having two surgeries, one on each day and it scared me to death. (I did get to finally see Grandpa last night and he looks much better than I thought he would. He might get to come home today if he had a good night last night.) On the way to the hospital last night my brother and I were talking about Bill and Daren told me that I'm worth more than this and deserve to be treated better. Daren never says anything about my relationships so it really hit home. He went on an on about respect and how he doesn't like watching me in this situation. Now I have to decide if I want to tell Bill I'm done or just stop all communications. I'm afraid that if I talk to him I will get so mad I will say very mean and hateful things just to make myself feel better and I try so hard no to act that way. Part of me doesn't think he deserves to hear how I feel after weeks of ignoring me. If he truly cared about how I feel he would have called back Saturday. I don't think I want to get myself all worked up for nothing because there is no going back this time. I can't do it anymore!!!!!!

On a happier note, Heather called me last night and Clay is interested in me. Her sister in law gave him my phone number last night. All I know about him so far is he's my age, never been married, doesn't have any kids, is a farmer and has a great sense of humor. Who knows what will happen but we did have a blast and I could use that right now!!!

New Car!!!

I finally got a new car!!! After a long week of researching and meeting with rude salesmen, I finally found the car I wanted. It's a 2006 Chevy Equinox. I'm in love!!!! I was very sad when they drove off in my Stratus, but after 4 years and 143,000 miles it was time.